the pretty ragdoll in the closet;
Hi, I'm Sophie and I'd like to make you smile.

I am not a liar but the truth can be rare. I'm the most indecisive person you'll ever meet. I will never be too old to colour in, but my thoughts will never stay within the lines.

I like inspiration. I like waking up and not being the same. Pretty people make me jealous and pretty thoughts help me think. Pretty places make me adventurous and pretty quotes make me f e e l .

I tend to find myself in chains I can't unlock, fighting for things that are already dead. My pride is my worst enemy. I have bad habits that I don't particularly want to break and a heart I'm not going to let anyone take. I'm stubborn and don't you know it, but I love everyone I know passionately.

i've been fighting my pride for far too long;
And somehow I'm not getting any stronger.

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I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
ladymaritza wanted my new url but she doesn’t have an ask box.

D:  I don’t know how to tell her.

What are some good tumblrs for themes?
I’m going to build a new tumblr and start again. If you don’t know me in real life and want my new url, drop a message in my ask or like this post.
I’m sorry.

I deserve death.

I wish so desperately that I could be the one you’re crying to right now.

That it could be just like the first time, or the second time, or the third time.  Like all the times when one of us cried, or didn’t, and the other person knew how to be there or how not to be there.  How somehow we knew when to give each other space and when to be there and even when we were fighting every few days it didn’t matter.  We were young, but we cared.

I’m being selfish, I know.  I honestly hope you’re okay; you’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever known.  That’s why it’s so hard not to have you in my life any more.  There’s this hole where Elise used to be and I know it doesn’t matter how hard we try, he’s the person you trust over me and you want over me and that’s okay, I guess I’ll just have to learn to deal with that.

If I’m honest, you chose him over me a long time ago.
I still wonder if you’ve ever regretted it.

You’re a strong person, even when it doesn’t feel that way.  You’re beautiful too and whole within yourself.  I know you, I’ve known you for a long time, better than anyone else dare I say it.  Maybe not anymore, but I did.  I practically worshipped at your feet for years.  Do you remember that?  I was silly, we both were.  I needed something to hold onto and you needed something to control and even though it wasn’t always healthy it always worked.  Eventually.

Your family are lovely people, even though they hurt each other.  They’re no more secure than you are, you know?  Maybe, maybe they never grew up either and they’re stuck in this world where they’re just swirling.  I don’t even know but its not fair that you always have to be the victim of it.  Elise.  The victim.  Strange, how someone so fierce falls the vulnerable one.  But maybe that’s why you were always fierce.

This post sounds so mean and cruel and I hope that if you ever read it, you know that’s not the intention.  I truly do love you, I’m just strangely selfishly insecure right now and somehow your family falling apart is helping me to.  Fall apart, I mean.  You really are beautiful.

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with GOD, the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand
Professor :  You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student :  Yes, sir.
Professor :  So, you believe in GOD?
Student :  Absolutely, sir.
Professor :  Is GOD good?
Student :  Sure.
Professor :  Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL?
Student :  Yes.
Professor :  My Brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
 (Student was silent)
Professor :  You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is GOD Good?
Student :  Yes.
Professor :  Is Satan good?
Student :  No.
Professor :  Where does Satan come from?
Student :  From...GOD...
Professor :  That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student :  Yes.
Professor :  Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student :  Yes.
Professor :  So who created evil?
 (Student did not answer)
Professor :  Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student :  Yes, sir.
Professor :  So, who created them?
 (Student had no answer)
Professor :  Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe The World around you. Tell me, son...have you ever feen GOD?
Student :  No, sir.
Professor :  Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
Student :  No, sir.
Professor :  Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student :  No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor :  Yet you still believe in HIM?
Student :  Yes.
Professor :  According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student :  Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor :  Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student :  Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor :  Yes.
Student :  And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor :  Yes.
Student :  No, sir. There isn't...
 (The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student :  Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat,
 Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
 There is no such thing as Cold.
 Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
 We cannot Measure Cold.
 Heat is Energy.
 Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.
 (There was pin-drop dilence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student :  What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor :  Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student :  You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light...But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it?
 In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor :  So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student :  Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor :  Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student :  Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue
 There is Life and then there is Death, a Good God and a Bad God. You are
 Viewing the Concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.
 Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and
 Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
 To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that
 Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
 Death is Not the Opposite of Life, just the Absence of it
 Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from
 a Monkey?
Professor :  If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student :  Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
 (The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the
 argument was going)
Student :  Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at
 work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor,
 Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?
 Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
 (The Class was in uproar)
Student :  Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the
 Professor's brain?
 (The Class broke out into laughter)
Student :  Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's
 brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?...No one appears to have done so.
 So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable
 Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
 (The Room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face
 unfathomable)
Professor :  I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student :  That is it sir...Exactly!
 The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
 That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.
  That student was ALBERT EINSTEIN.
 omg. this is literally one of the most amazing things i have ever read.